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Sunday, March 28, 2010

GOD'S MYSTERIOUS WAYS

IN QUIAPO, WE STARTED OUR NOVENA TO EL SENOR NAZARENO.
WE JOINED THEMANY DEVOTEES, AT MASS
WE CLIMBED THE STEPS DAILY TO TOUCH HIS GARMENTS.


DON'S DEVOTION TO THE NAZARENO STARTED WHEN HE WAS IN COLLEGE, AT THE MAPUA.
DAILY HE VISITED EL SENOR NAZARENO.

WHEN HE HAD AGREED TO UNDERGO SURGERY, HE ASKED THAT WE GO TO THE NAZARENO
WE STARTED THE NOVENA
WE SOUGHT THE NAZARENO'S HEALING MERCY
WE ASKED THAT HE SHOW US THE WAY TO OVEROCME THE MANY UNANSWERED QUESTIONS IN OUR HEARTS
I PRAYED THAT DON BE SPARED OF PAIN AND DISCOMFORT
I WENT TO CONFESSION THERE BEFOERE WE LEFT FOR LOS ANGELES
IT WAS THERE TOO WHERE WE OFFERED MASSES FOR THE POOR SOULS AS DIRECTED BY FR GEORGE

ALL OUR CHILDREN AND OUR FRIENDS AND CLASSMATES WERE REQUESTED BY DON TO VISIT QUIAPO ANDSAY A PRAYER FOR HIM

IN ALBAY HE ASKED ALL HIS SIBLINGS TO GO TO THE SENOR NAZARENO

WHEN WE ARRIVED IN LOS ANGELES, ALICE AND TONY AND VILMA CAME TO SEE DON.
WHEN HE EARD OF THE DEVOTION TOT HE NAZARENO , ALICE TOLD US , THAT IT IS CLAIMED THAT WHOEVER PETITIONS EL SENOR NAZARENO HAS TO BE READY FOR A LONG WALK TO GOLGOTHA..A LONG WAIT FOR PRAYERS TO BE ANSWERED

AT ABOUT THE SAME TIME, DOC JEAN CORTES ZALAMEA BEGAN HER DAILY CALLS.
JEAN IS A AFRIEND OF LONG AGO. WE BOTH HAVE A SPEACIAL PLACE IN OUR HEARTS FOR THE VISUALLY IMPAITED.

SHE SUPPORTED US THROUGH EACH DAY OF UNCERTAINTY AND VERY KINDLY SENT THE NOVENA TO THE PRECIOUS BLOOD

FROM FLORIDA ON TO THIS DAY, DON HAS NOT MISSED PRAYING THE ROSARY AND THE CHAPLET IN HONOR OF THE PRECIOUS BLOOD

AND YES...ON THE DAY WE WERE DEPARTING FROM FLORIDA FOR RHODE ISLAND ..GOD;S MYSTERIOUS WAYS STRUCK US ANEW.

WE HAD GONE TO THE AIRPORT EARLY ENOUGH
HANS DROVE US TO THE SOUTHWEST TERMINAL
ON A WHEEL CHAIR WE WERE ASSISTED TO GATE 3 C

A GENTLEMAN WAS SITTING IN FRONT OF US
BESIDE HIM WAS A BLANKETTED PERSON
LATER ON WE FOUND OUT SHE WAS DIANNE, HIS WIFE
SHE WAS TIRED AND HAD CHOSEN TO SLEEP ON THE AIRPORT BENCH.

HE STRUCK A CONVERSATION WITH DON WHEN HE SAW THE HEART PILLOW OF DON
THE CLEVELAND CLINIC RED HEART PILLOW IF OFTEN A SIGN THAT THE PERSON HAS UNDERGONE
SURGERY

AND AS DON WAS ON THE PHONE HE MOVED TO MY SIDE AND TOLD ME A LOT OF THINGS ABOUT SURGERY AND DEPRESSION .

AND ON AND ON AND ON HE SPOKE WITH ME ..
WITH MANY IMPORTANT GUIDELINES FORM ONE WHO HAS UNDERGONE A HEART SURGERY
I LISTENED ..TERRIBLY GRATEFUL FOR THE FIRST HAND STORIES..SHARED FROM HIS QUADRUPLED HEART

HE ASKED US IF WE ARE CHRISTIANS
I ANSWERED YES...WE ARE ROMAN CATHOLICS.
AND ALL THE MORE THE EXCHANGE BECAME INTERESTING

HE WAS A DEACON
THEY DISTRIBUTE CRUCIFIXES FROM TALAHASSEE FLORIDA

AND AS THE CONVERSATION COVERED TOPICS OF FAITH ...
THERE WAS ONE REALITY THAT STRUCK US ..

HE WAS CONNECTED WITH THE PUBLISHER AND DISTRIBUTOR OF THE PRAYER MANUAL OF THE PRECIOUS BLOOD OF JESUS

HE WAS A BAPTIST.

HE LEFT ME WITH TWO BOOKS AND TOLD ME ABOUT THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN CATHOLICS AND BAPTISTS.

AND IN THE LENGTHY AND EMOTION FILLED DIALOGUE ON FAITH AND FAITH EXPERIENCE ,
THIS I KNOW ...THE PRECIOUS BLOOD OF JESUS WAS SHED FOR ALL OF US ..WAITING AT GATE 3 C OF THE JACKSONVILLE AIRPORT ON A DAY THAT SOUTHWEST FLT 860 WAS FLYING ON TOT TAMPA AND LATER IN THEDAY TO PROVIDENCE RHODE ISLAND.

OH GOD YOUR WAYS ARE TRULY MYSTERIOUS !!!

AND DON SLEPT..

Tito Tony and Tita Loly brougt us to Jacksonville. We stayed with Tita Ida for 2 nights.

Austin, JOshua and Jacob the 3 sons of Hans spent some time with us.

We visited Tita Ida's new apartment. Lovely place. Ideally located near the Parish church of the Resurrection

We feasted on her special dishes...lengua..nilaga...paksiw..apay...shrimps...baked ribs..broiled chicken..endless...

Well the boys truly enjoyed Tita Ida's food.

Austin says it so nicely. "Lola Ida is the best in the world. She cooks FOOD!!"
Their other grandma cooks spaghetti. Hahaha.

On March 25th, we spent time at the perpetual adoration chapel of the Parish of the HOly Trinity.

And by God's grace...Don finally had his GENUINE NIGHT SLEEP.
It was not disrupted...
It was truly a calm night.
He slept so well.

He did not hear our voices..IDA , GLO AND CLEO AND MINE.
.
Tita Ida and I were awake all night.
Preparing our luggage
Sharing dreams

It is always a grace to meet up with Ida.
It is always energizing.

HUMBLED BUT IN SOLIDARITY

A few days ago I received word from Shelmed that 2 of our flower makers passed away
One in the evening and the other, the morning after.

I felt a loneliness that I could not explain .

Our producers , come and go but our flower makers through the years have kept us company.

I thought of death

I thought of the pain of separation

I thought of our many producers who have gone ...one by one...and some I will never get to say goodbye..
They will never be replaced as no one in their family have interest in the business

I thought of the wake that I will miss and hoped that Shelmed officers will find it in their heart to visit with their families .and be in solidarity.

There is something about wakes that make be truly humble
In the casket is a friend who has responded to her mortality
In the casket is a friend who has accepted the end to the first phase of BEING..

HUMBLED.
YET ONE IN SOLIDARITY.

DEATH COMES IN MANY DIFFERENT WAYS
FOR MANY DIFFERENT REASONS


AT TIMES THAT WE DO NOT FULLY UNDERSTAND AND SOMETIMES CANNOT ACCEPT..

DEATH REMINDS US THAT LIFE IS A GIFT

WRAPPED WITH THE RIBBONS OF HELPLESSNESS

THE DEPARTURE REMINDS US THAT SOON WE WILL BE ALONE AND LONELINESS HAS STARTED WITH GRIEF..

LIKE JESUS IN GETHSEMANE...THERE IS GRIEF...
HE UNDERWENT HIS PASSION ...ALONE
THE APOSTLES SLEPT
THERE IS NO ONE TO KEEP JESUS COMPANY


MUSIC
PRAYERS
FLOWERS
PEOPLE AT THE WAKE...

AND YET IN OUR FAITH
THIS PASSION SUNDAY
WE ONLY NEED THE FRONDS ..

TO REMIND US OF PASSION AND DEATH
OF A MAN WHO LOVED US


IN OUR HEARTS THERE WILL BE MUSIC
IN OUR MEMORY THERE WILL BE FLOWERS
IN CHURCH PEOPLE HAVE COME TO RENEW IN FAITH

THAT JESUS HAS STARTED HIS PASSION AND WILL DIE TO RISE AGAIN

AND WE WILL REMEMBER HIS LOVE

WE WERE NOT AT HIS WAKE..

YET TODAY WE ARE HUMBLED AND WE ARE IN SOLIDARITY

Thursday, March 18, 2010

THOUGHTS ..ON A SOFA .

PALM COAST ..ON A QUIET AFTERNOON
AN AFTER THOUGHT


DON AND I HAVE HAD SO MUCH TIME TOGETHER
BUT LAST NIGHT WAS DIFFERENT
WE LAUGHED AND TALKED AND DREAMT

TITO TONY AND TITA LOLY HAD TO GO TO A DINNER AND DON DID NOT FEEL COMFORTABLE ABOUT
GOING OUT . HE HAD JUST A LITTLE BIT TOO MUCH OF SLURS.

SO WE STAYED HOME AND COOKED OUR DINNER
..WE HAD SALAD AND STEAK FOR DINNER

THEN HE SAT DOWN AND I JOINED HIM..AFTER CLEANING THE KITCHEN ..

THERE WAS NO MUSIC AVAILABLE
BUT WE HAD LOTS OF LAUGHTER
AND TIME TO SERIOUSLY CONSIDER A FEW THOUGHTS ABOUT WHAT TO DO AFTER GOING HOME

DON TOLD ME HE WANTS TO SERVE
HE WANTS TO ACTIVELY SERVE THROUGH DIOS MABALOS PO FOUNDATION

FOR YEARS NOW HE HAS GENEROUSLY SUPPORTED DMPF
PROVIDING ALL THE SALARIES AND OPERATIONAL EXPENSE OF DMPF
BUT NOW HE WANTS TO DO MORE

HANDS ON ..

THESE QUOTES ARE AFTER THOUGHTS ...

COME ON DON...LET'S MOVE ON ...LET'S CONTINUE TO SERVE..
GOD IS OUR EMPLOYER.



1. "I don't know what your destiny will be, but one thing I do
know: the only ones among you who will be truly happy will be those
who have sought and found how to serve."
--Albert Schweitzer

2. "A joy that's shared is a joy made double."
--John Ray

3. "If all our happiness is bound up entirely in our personal
circumstances it is difficult not to demand of life more than it
has to give."
--Bertrand Russell

4. "The happiness of life is made up of minute fractions - the
little, soon forgotten charities of a kiss or smile, a kind look, a
heartfelt compliment, and the countless infinitesimals of
pleasurable and genial feeling."
--Samuel Taylor Coleridge

5. "In the power to change yourself is the power to change the
world around you."
--Anwar Sadat

6. "I am old enough to know that victory is often a thing deferred,
and rarely at the summit of courage. What is at the summit of
courage, I think is freedom. The freedom that comes with the
knowledge that no earthly thing can break you."
--Paula Giddings

7. "The happiest people don't necessarily have the best of
everything. They just make the best of everything."
--Sol Gordon

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

I LEAVE IT AT THE FOOT OF MARY

WE THANK GOD THAT HE ANSWERED OUR PRAYER FOR DON TO BE SPARED OF RADIATION
BUT THERE IS NO CERTAINTY THAT THE TUMOR WILL NOT GROW AGAIN.IN FOUR MONTHS TIME DON WILL HAVE TO UNDER A CT SCAN ...AND EVERY 4 MONTHS THEREAFTER

DEAR ALL
HEREUNDER IS THE LONG AWAITED REPORT OF DR CHRISTOPHER CHEN OF CLEVELAND CLINIC
WESTON CITY. HE IS THE RADIATION ONCOLOGIST THAT DR SAVAGE ASKED TO SPEAK WITH US

HE REFERRED PAPA TO MR THYMOMA IN INDIANA..DR PATRICK LOEHRER.

WE HAVE AN APPOINTMENT ON APRIL 12 1 PM INDIANAPOLIS
THE APPOINTMENT AGENDA IS WITH REGARDS TO THE MARGIN BETWEEN THYMOMA STAGE 2 AND THYMOMA STAGE 3 AND NEED FOR RADIATION AND THE CONSIDERATION OF A CLINICAL TRIAL

AS OF TONIGHT PAPA IS THINKING TWICE ABOUT GOING TO INDIANA
ONE STEP AT A TIME

TESS A OF ALBANY HAS OFFERED TO MEET US IN CHICAGO AND LIEZEL THE DAUGHTER OF MANOY HAS OFFERED TO DRIVE US TO INDIANA FROM CHICAGO

CHRIS IS LOOKING INTO JOINING US FOR THE DOCTORS VISIT
WEST VIRGINIA IS NOT FAR FROM INDIANA

TIYEN SORRA HAS PROPOSED THAT WE CONSIDER A NEURO ONCOLOGIST INSTEAD OF GOING TO INDIANA WE SHOULD GO TO BALTIMORE .

WE ALSO HAVE AN ORDER FOR THE PULMO FUNCTION TEST BY THE NEURO DR MICHEL PULLEY
DON SAYS HE WILL DO THIS IN MANILA

WE WISH TO FLY BACK ON APRIL 9TH WHICH WILL BE ABOUT 6 WEEKS POST SURGERY
IF SO THEN WE WILL NOT GO TO INDIANA
IF WE GO TO INDIANA WE MAY HAVE TO DEPART ABOUT APRIL 16TH
NO FINAL DECISION YET

FOR TONIGHT ...I LEAVE IT AT THE FOOT OF MARY

CHEERS
MAMA /TITA MED/MED





Hi Mr. and Mrs. Villanueva,

I have reviewed the pathology report, which shows early stage II disease.

I therefore do not recommend radiation therapy.

Instead, I recommend CT scans of the neck/upper chest every 4 months.

You should follow-up with a neurologist as well and have him order these tests.

Best wishes!

Christopher Chen



"FINAL DIAGNOSIS
CLEVELAND CLINIC FLORIDA, WESTON, FL (S10-2320)
Thymus gland, excision
-Lymphocytic-rich thymoma (predominantly WHO type B1), focally
invasive (see comment)
COMMENT
The tumor is composed of multiple lobules of polygonal large
epithelial cells in a prominent background of lymphocytes. The
tumor focally extends into the pericapsular fibroadipose tissue
and is adherent to the visceral pleura of the lung tissue present
with the specimen. The peripheral margins are negative (less than
0.1cm) The pathologic stage is T2 (tumor invades pericapsular
connective tissue ) NX MX (stage ll). Immunohistochemical stains
for cytokeratins CAM 5.2 , AE1/AE3 and 5/6 were performed at the
Cleveland Clinic Ohio for the evaluation of this case. Dr. James
cook has also reviewed selected slides from this case and
concurs.
Electronically signed by A. Valeria Arrossi, MD

FLOUNDER SANDWICH

THERE WAS TOO MUCH ANTICIPATION
FOR THE
THICK AND JUICY
FLOUNDER SANDWICH

11 MILES OUT THERE
SOMEWHERE
WE DROVE
FOR A
FLOUNDER SANDWICH

IT WAS NICE AND COOL
OH NO JUST A LITTLE BIT TOO COOL

THE PAPER BAG WAS BROUGHT IN
AND FRIES WERE ON THE TOP
A BITE HERE
A BITE AGAIN
THEN OFF WE SPED BACK HOME

AHHH...FOR THE FIRST BITE
AHHH...FOR THE LEVEL OF EXPECTATION
AHHH...FOR GUSTATORY DELIGHT
AHHH...FOR THE SADNESS
FLOUNDERS ...TASTELESS

HOW MANY TIMES OVER WILL WE FEEL THIS WAY
HOW MANY MORE TIMES WILL FOOD BE TAKEN
INTO A TASTELESS PALATE

WAS FOOD MADE FOR THE TASTE ?
WAS TASTE MADE FOR THE FOOD ?

OR WAS FOOD MADE FOR YOU AND ME ?

FOR THAT WE GIVE THANKS.

AND WAS TASTE A BONUS FOR THE FOOD?

I ASK NO MORE THE REASON WHY

AT PALM COAST
SORRA RESIDENE

ANXIOUSLY WAITING



I ASK NO MORE THE REASON WHY
THE PATH AHEAD I DO NOT SEE
FOR THOUGH I KNOW NOT ALL

THIS I KNOW
HE KNOWS
THE PATH HE CHOOSES FOR DON

AND THIS I TRULY KNOW
IT IS THE BEST
IT IS THE MASTER'S PLAN
FIAT...

THERE ARE REASONS
THERE ARE SEASONS
I HAVE SURRENDERED

WHEN WILL THE PATHO RESULTS BE GIVEN
THE DAYS HAVE COME AND GONE
MORNINGS HAVE BROKEN AND NOW
THE NIGHTS ARE HERE

SOON

WILL I HAVE WEEEKS TO COUNT?
WILL THE WEEKS BE MONTHS TOO SOON?

I ASK NO MORE WHEN WILL WE HEAR FROM THEM
AND AS THERE MAY BE REASONS FOR THE DELAY
I CLOSE MY EYES
I HEAVE A SIGH

THOU ART MY GOD
I ASK NO MORE THE REASON WHY
.